A day of rambling as a army mom...

Well I was reading your lists of care packages and I remember Travis telling me that he could have care packages. But later when I asked him what he needed he would say nothing..... Do you think I should send him something,,,, HMMMM I think I will start my own lists... with your help of ideals..... I worry so much that I will send something that they are not allowed to have..

How do you all know what they are not allowed to have....I mean common sense stuff I know. But I seem to think that I said something... Oh yeah I asked him if he wanted me to send him some brownies and he said they wasnt allowed to have them... Why???


I am just trying to think ahead of myself again, ain't I ( there is that accent again).... I just trying to be prepared...

He called this evening too. Said they just got off maneuvers and he had slept all day.. Wanted me to access his band account and see if I could balance it... Like get real son I dont know where or how much you have outstanding.... I think I need to call his sargeant and have him give him a lesson in bank register.. He is using that atm debit card like a credit card with no ending balance... anyway his statement doesnt show no bounced checks this month... I tried ladies I really did to get him to open an account a few yrs back so I could help him learn to balance it and he wouldnt listen to me... wanted nothing at all to do with a checking account..... now he is out there where I cant help much and learning it the hard way... I guess you learn life either the easy way or the hard way dont you..

anyway I am rambling again. sorry, you guys help me to keep things straight in my head though....God bless you all....

four more weeks---AIT

Well Trav has four more weeks of training at his AIT base. I have heard so many stories of his training. People have told me that he is a glorified Gas pumper, a truck driver, and nothing but a target for the opposition.. yeah that was a nice one. That he would be driving gas trucks around iraq.

But he tells me that that his training consist of him learning about pipe lines and how refineries work. I dont understand how that is going to help him if he is deployed to Iraq. But the army knows what it is doing right.....

Anyhow he hasnt told me that he is deployed. But he told me that his unit that he is to go to after his Ait and airborne training is deployed. So I assume that that is basically the same thing.

Travis is doing fine but I am not so sure about mom. He got him a computer and internet. So I can usually catch him every evening.. Sometimes he doesnt talk to me, but I see that he is on and that keeps me calm, knowing that he is here. I know I am having a awful time with this. But Travis has always been there. Over the last few years I have let him make his own decisions and he has done what he wanted but i always made him keep me informed as what was going on. other then that he was in and out so I knew he was okay. I think I am the one having a hard time.... I just feel so lost. I dont know from one minute to the next where he is at and what he is doing. He does talk to me now and then but not like he did when he was home. I guess he is growing up and dont need mom as much but darn it. The war thing and the state of the world and him joining the service is what keeps me stirred up. This is so hard...

God help me get threw this and God please protect my son.

May already!!!

Well it is May already. Seems as if time is flying. I wish it would just stop so I can keep my children safe, it would sure help my sanity. Trav only has 5 more weeks of Ait training and off to airborne.

Wow!!! my son jumping out of airplanes. He wants to. Scares me, but I tried to teach him to face his fears. Now I have to face mine, that I am scared to death. I know someday he will till me that he is going to Iraq, Afghanistan , or some other unsafe place. And I have to learn to live with that. I know I cannot let this get the best of me or I will lose it and then I will be of no help to him if he needs me. And really there is not a whole lot I can do. He is paving his rode.

I enrolled in a couple of classes for fall, I figure that will keep me busy. And I will still have summer to enjoy. Trav should be home late July, maybe August or September. He isnt sure how long his airborne training will be. His contract says three weeks, so we will see. My daughter will graduate high school the end of this month. I dont know if she has decided to go in the army or not. I dont figure she will, he dad dont want her too and she usually listens to him. But that is another story that I dont want to go into today.

I have looked at some blogs of soldiers, somewhere I feel the need to go there, but when I go there it makes me depressed and scares me. I know I need to get prepared and to learn how it all works. That is hard for me.

How will I keep track of him? Can he blog, my space me, email me, or will I hear nothing for months on end? How do I know when someone is killed or hurt. I read of mothers hearing of deaths or injuries and wondering who? Messing phone calls because I cant get a signal on my cell. Our town has such poor reception, I cant get a signal at all in the house. We do still have a land phone though.



God give me the courage and wisdom to change what I can and to know what I cant change.

I could really use a friend..