four more weeks---AIT

Well Trav has four more weeks of training at his AIT base. I have heard so many stories of his training. People have told me that he is a glorified Gas pumper, a truck driver, and nothing but a target for the opposition.. yeah that was a nice one. That he would be driving gas trucks around iraq.

But he tells me that that his training consist of him learning about pipe lines and how refineries work. I dont understand how that is going to help him if he is deployed to Iraq. But the army knows what it is doing right.....

Anyhow he hasnt told me that he is deployed. But he told me that his unit that he is to go to after his Ait and airborne training is deployed. So I assume that that is basically the same thing.

Travis is doing fine but I am not so sure about mom. He got him a computer and internet. So I can usually catch him every evening.. Sometimes he doesnt talk to me, but I see that he is on and that keeps me calm, knowing that he is here. I know I am having a awful time with this. But Travis has always been there. Over the last few years I have let him make his own decisions and he has done what he wanted but i always made him keep me informed as what was going on. other then that he was in and out so I knew he was okay. I think I am the one having a hard time.... I just feel so lost. I dont know from one minute to the next where he is at and what he is doing. He does talk to me now and then but not like he did when he was home. I guess he is growing up and dont need mom as much but darn it. The war thing and the state of the world and him joining the service is what keeps me stirred up. This is so hard...

God help me get threw this and God please protect my son.