May already!!!

Well it is May already. Seems as if time is flying. I wish it would just stop so I can keep my children safe, it would sure help my sanity. Trav only has 5 more weeks of Ait training and off to airborne.

Wow!!! my son jumping out of airplanes. He wants to. Scares me, but I tried to teach him to face his fears. Now I have to face mine, that I am scared to death. I know someday he will till me that he is going to Iraq, Afghanistan , or some other unsafe place. And I have to learn to live with that. I know I cannot let this get the best of me or I will lose it and then I will be of no help to him if he needs me. And really there is not a whole lot I can do. He is paving his rode.

I enrolled in a couple of classes for fall, I figure that will keep me busy. And I will still have summer to enjoy. Trav should be home late July, maybe August or September. He isnt sure how long his airborne training will be. His contract says three weeks, so we will see. My daughter will graduate high school the end of this month. I dont know if she has decided to go in the army or not. I dont figure she will, he dad dont want her too and she usually listens to him. But that is another story that I dont want to go into today.

I have looked at some blogs of soldiers, somewhere I feel the need to go there, but when I go there it makes me depressed and scares me. I know I need to get prepared and to learn how it all works. That is hard for me.

How will I keep track of him? Can he blog, my space me, email me, or will I hear nothing for months on end? How do I know when someone is killed or hurt. I read of mothers hearing of deaths or injuries and wondering who? Messing phone calls because I cant get a signal on my cell. Our town has such poor reception, I cant get a signal at all in the house. We do still have a land phone though.



God give me the courage and wisdom to change what I can and to know what I cant change.

I could really use a friend..